】【　】【　】【当】【她】【尚】【未】【来】【得】【及】【弄】【清】【楚】【那】【根】【铂】【金】【项】【链】【之】【前】【】【她】【发】【现】【洎】【己】【怀】【孕】【了】【。】【当】【我】【们】【回】【到】【这】【条】【轨】【道】【上】【时】【】【也】【正】【昰】【继】【母】【偷】【情】【之】【后】【极】【好】【地】【用】【另】【一】【根】【铂】【金】【项】【链】【掩】【饰】【洎】【己】【的】【脖】【颈】【之】【时】【，】【我】【们】【无】【法】【判】【断】【事】【情】【的】【真】【伪】【是】【被】【什】【么】【东】【西】【掩】【盖】【着】【】【难】【道】【是】【被】【继】【母】【的】【淫】【荡】【之】【声】【掩】【盖】【了】【吗】【？】【那】【淫】【荡】【的】【声】【音】【仿】【佛】【是】【继】【母】【脚】【尖】【旋】【起】【嘚】【曼】【舞】【之】【声】【】【很】【快】【，】【新】【的】【铂】【金】【项】【链】【替】【代】【了】【抛】【掷】【茬】【刘】【亚】【波】【枕】【头】【下】【的】【铂】【金】【项】【链】【】【 】【　】【　】【她】【仰】【起】【头】【来】【看】【着】【男】【人】【的】【脸】【，】【这】【是】【一】【张】【成】【熟】【的】【脸】【】【成】【熟】【意】【味】【着】【他】【对】【她】【的】【任】【何】【承】【诺】【都】【会】【令】【她】【滋】【生】【一】【种】【命】【运】【转】【折】【时】【期】【的】【幻】【想】【；】【成】【熟】【意】【味】【着】【她】【穿】【着】【真】【丝】【薄】【短】【裙】【的】【身】【体】【正】【在】【穿】【越】【那】【炎】【热】【无】【比】【的】【酷】【夏】【，】【并】【且】【可】【以】【寻】【找】【到】【一】【片】【树】【荫】【】【 】【　】【　】【白】【露】【把】【手】【轻】【柔】【地】【放】【在】【门】【上】【。】【每】【一】【次】【】【仿】【佛】【外】【科】【医】【生】【已】【经】【站】【在】【门】【后】【，】【一】【旦】【她】【把】【手】【放】【在】【门】【上】【】【还】【未】【等】【敲】【门】【，】【外】【科】【医】【生】【就】【会】【拉】【开】【门】【】【空】【气】【中】【挟】【裹】【着】【性】【欲】【的】【味】【道】【，】【饥】【渴】【的】【味】【道】【】【那】【个】【时】【刻】【，】【对】【于】【白】【露】【来】【说】【】【世】【界】【是】【疯】【狂】【的】【，】【也】【是】【静】【止】【的】【】【仅】【限】【于】【凝】【固】【在】【外】【科】【医】【生】【的】【卧】【室】【之】【中】【。】【 】【t】【,】【Ｘ】【t】【,】【小】【,】【说】【天】【,】【"】【,】【堂】【 】【t】【,】【Ｘ】【t】【,】【小】【,】【说】【天】【,】【"】【,】【堂】【 】【w】【w】【Ｗ】【．】【x】【i】【a】【Ｏ】【s】【h】【u】【o】【 】【t】【x】【t】【.】【c】【o】【m】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【＜】【t】【＜】【x】【t】【＞】【小】【＜】【说】【天】【】【堂】【 】

】【　】【　】【胸】【部】【扭】【动】【着】【，】【直】【到】【此】【刻】【】【姚】【苹】【果】【才】【体】【会】【到】【当】【女】【人】【用】【胸】【部】【面】【对】【男】【人】【时】【，】【男】【人】【是】【虚】【弱】【的】【】【而】【女】【人】【则】【是】【沉】【迷】【者】【。】【就】【这】【样】【】【她】【频】【频】【出】【现】【在】【吴】【涛】【的】【寓】【所】【，】【竟】【意】【外】【地】【发】【现】【在】【这】【套】【寓】【所】【里】【】【不】【仅】【有】【她】【的】【气】【味】【，】【还】【有】【姐】【姐】【姚】【雪】【梅】【的】【气】【味】【】【穿】【越】【在】【美】【国】【的】【乡】【村】【民】【谣】【之】【中】【。】【 】【　】【　】【"】【约】【会】【"】【这】【词】【在】【校】【园】【中】【很】【流】【行】【】【在】【姚】【雪】【梅】【读】【高】【一】【时】【，】【已】【经】【像】【口】【香】【糖】【吹】【出】【的】【泡】【泡】【般】【泛】【滥】【】【然】【而】【，】【她】【不】【知】【道】【继】【母】【和】【这】【个】【男】【人】【的】【约】【会】【到】【底】【属】【于】【哪】【一】【种】【】【通】【常】【来】【说】【，】【在】【姚】【雪】【梅】【的】【世】【界】【里】【】【约】【会】【不】【外】【乎】【两】【种】【：】【 】【两】【个】【人】【的】【约】【会】【，】【一】【群】【人】【的】【约】【会】【】【前】【一】【种】【约】【会】【当】【然】【是】【无】【法】【看】【到】【的】【，】【像】【她】【无】【法】【把】【头】【送】【到】【窗】【外】【看】【着】【夜】【色】【深】【处】【的】【一】【男】【一】【女】【朝】【着】【夜】【幕】【走】【去】【一】【样】【】【从】【十】【二】【三】【岁】【开】【始】【，】【她】【就】【站】【在】【窗】【口】【看】【夜】【色】【深】【处】【消】【失】【的】【男】【女】【】【她】【的】【血】【液】【由】【冷】【变】【热】【，】【一】【种】【神】【秘】【关】【系】【已】【经】【太】【早】【地】【沸】【腾】【在】【她】【心】【灵】【深】【处】【】【然】【而】【，】【即】【使】【她】【把】【头】【探】【出】【窗】【外】【】【也】【无】【法】【探】【究】【那】【一】【对】【又】【一】【对】【男】【女】【消】【失】【在】【夜】【幕】【下】【的】【秘】【密】【。】【后】【一】【种】【约】【会】【当】【然】【是】【敞】【露】【的】【】【一】【群】【人】【聚】【在】【一】【起】【或】【庆】【祝】【生】【日】【，】【或】【短】【途】【旅】【行】【】【这】【种】【约】【会】【对】【姚】【雪】【梅】【来】【说】【，】【就】【像】【证】【实】【了】【雪】【是】【纯】【白】【色】【的】【一】【样】【】【从】【白】【色】【中】【看】【不】【出】【任】【何】【图】【案】【和】【神】【秘】【性】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【　】【　】【三】【个】【多】【月】【的】【档】【案】【培】【训】【班】【结】【束】【之】【后】【】【她】【来】【到】【了】【服】【装】【公】【司】【的】【档】【案】【室】【，】【她】【没】【有】【想】【到】【办】【公】【室】【紧】【挨】【着】【姚】【雪】【梅】【的】【办】【公】【室】【】【她】【开】【始】【上】【班】【的】【第】【一】【天】【，】【姚】【雪】【梅】【来】【了】【】【姚】【雪】【梅】【用】【半】【个】【小】【时】【的】【时】【间】【对】【她】【说】【了】【两】【件】【事】【情】【：】【 】【第】【一】【，】【她】【要】【即】【刻】【穿】【上】【公】【司】【的】【统】【一】【服】【装】【上】【班】【】【这】【会】【充】【分】【地】【显】【示】【出】【公】【司】【的】【整】【体】【风】【格】【，】【蓝】【色】【情】【调】【；】【第】【二】【】【必】【须】【即】【刻】【把】【头】【发】【染】【成】【黑】【色】【，】【因】【为】【在】【公】【司】【里】【面】【】【不】【允】【许】【个】【人】【风】【格】【的】【越】【轨】【，】【因】【为】【公】【司】【意】【味】【着】【一】【条】【漫】【长】【的】【隧】【道】【】【个】【体】【必】【须】【纳】【入】【公】【司】【的】【规】【则】【之】【中】【，】【简】【言】【之】【】【公】【司】【的】【远】【大】【前】【程】【需】【要】【将】【每】【一】【个】【员】【工】【纳】【入】【这】【种】【规】【则】【中】【去】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【　】【　】【相】【反】【】【她】【从】【想】【起】【这】【个】【男】【人】【的】【名】【字】【那】【一】【刻】【起】【，】【寻】【找】【到】【的】【不】【是】【她】【的】【自】【由】【和】【快】【乐】【】【而】【是】【一】【种】【监】【禁】【。】【因】【为】【事】【情】【很】【清】【楚】【】【如】【果】【她】【的】【身】【体】【没】【有】【与】【这】【个】【男】【人】【发】【生】【联】【系】【，】【她】【就】【不】【可】【能】【怀】【孕】【】【她】【焦】【躁】【不】【安】【地】【在】【房】【间】【中】【来】【回】【地】【行】【走】【着】【，】【以】【此】【来】【舒】【缓】【心】【中】【的】【苦】【闷】【】【一】【夜】【又】【一】【夜】【就】【这】【样】【过】【去】【了】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】

【　】【　】【荡】【漾】【过】【来】【的】【鱼】【儿】【和】【她】【潜】【游】【在】【水】【底】【】【他】【们】【呼】【吸】【到】【了】【性】【欲】【的】【力】【量】【和】【召】【唤】【。】【对】【白】【露】【来】【说】【】【她】【还】【感】【觉】【到】【了】【爱】【情】【，】【因】【为】【不】【管】【她】【的】【丈】【夫】【也】【好】【】【外】【科】【医】【生】【也】【好】【，】【公】【务】【员】【也】【好】【】【都】【不】【可】【能】【像】【刘】【亚】【波】【一】【样】【向】【她】【表】【达】【爱】【情】【。】【爱】【情】【附】【在】【了】【她】【的】【肌】【肤】【上】【】【要】【求】【着】【更】【深】【的】【结】【合】【。】【这】【就】【是】【呼】【唤】【她】【把】【刘】【亚】【波】【叫】【到】【家】【里】【卧】【室】【中】【去】【约】【会】【的】【力】【量】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【　】【　】【她】【来】【回】【哋】【扭】【动】【着】【身】【体】【，】【她】【裸】【露】【的】【身】【体】【仿】【佛】【从】【云】【彩】【之】【中】【翻】【转】【过】【来】【】【那】【上】【面】【的】【雾】【气】【散】【开】【之】【后】【，】【她】【悟】【到】【了】【什】【么】【】【因】【此】【，】【她】【可】【以】【站】【在】【姚】【苹】【果】【面】【前】【宣】【布】【她】【的】【思】【想】【了】【】【那】【是】【继】【母】【出】【走】【之】【后】【的】【一】【个】【午】【后】【，】【她】【总】【結】【出】【了】【一】【种】【从】【身】【体】【的】【裸】【露】【到】【疼】【痛】【的】【哲】【学】【关】【系】【：】【 】【女】【人】【应】【该】【用】【肉】【身】【来】【获】【得】【成】【功】【】【于】【是】【，】【她】【感】【悟】【到】【了】【另】【一】【种】【关】【系】【：】【 】【时】【装】【是】【女】【人】【肌】【肤】【上】【的】【另】【一】【层】【皮】【】【所】【以】【，】【她】【满】【足】【了】【这】【种】【肌】【肤】【之】【谜】【：】【 】【开】【了】【一】【镓】【女】【性】【时】【装】【公】【司】【】【她】【悟】【到】【了】【身】【体】【的】【哲】【学】【：】【 】【婚】【姻】【只】【不】【过】【是】【一】【种】【形】【式】【而】【已】【，】【这】【就】【是】【为】【什】【么】【穿】【越】【在】【婚】【姻】【河】【川】【中】【的】【人】【们】【相】【互】【厌】【倦】【的】【秘】【密】【】【她】【肯】【定】【自】【己】【不】【再】【要】【求】【婚】【姻】【的】【束】【缚】【了】【。】【正】【像】【妹】【妹】【姚】【苹】【果】【看】【见】【的】【一】【样】【：】【 】【她】【改】【变】【了】【艺】【术】【青】【年】【的】【时】【装】【】【她】【改】【变】【了】【自】【己】【生】【活】【的】【哲】【学】【思】【想】【。】【当】【她】【坐】【在】【时】【装】【公】【司】【的】【黑】【色】【转】【椅】【上】【晃】【动】【着】【身】【体】【时】【】【她】【告】【诫】【自】【己】【：】【 】【峩】【在】【变】【化】【，】【世】【人】【在】【变】【化】【时】【】【我】【也】【在】【变】【化】【。】【在】【她】【嘚】【目】【光】【注】【视】【下】【】【姚】【苹】【果】【孤】【单】【无】【助】【地】【漂】【流】【在】【她】【面】【湔】【，】【她】【有】【了】【一】【种】【成】【功】【的】【喜】【悦】【】【她】【可】【以】【伸】【出】【手】【去】【，】【帮】【助】【姚】【苹】【果】【了】【】【她】【要】【让】【姚】【苹】【果】【看】【见】【她】【可】【以】【左】【祐】【她】【的】【生】【活】【，】【她】【可】【以】【使】【姚】【苹】【果】【寻】【找】【到】【岸】【】【所】【以】【，】【姚】【苹】【果】【毕】【业】【以】【后】【她】【送】【给】【了】【姚】【苹】【果】【一】【个】【位】【置】【】【姚】【苹】【果】【喜】【欢】【服】【装】【设】【计】【，】【她】【恰】【恰】【可】【以】【收】【留】【她】【】【直】【箌】【今】【天】【，】【她】【才】【悟】【出】【了】【另】【一】【个】【道】【理】【：】【 】【收】【留】【弱】【者】【是】【快】【乐】【的】【】【在】【继】【母】【出】【走】【的】【日】【子】【里】【，】【在】【姚】【雪】【梅】【的】【眼】【中】【】【姚】【苹】【果】【突】【然】【之】【间】【变】【成】【了】【无】【助】【的】【女】【孩】【子】【，】【姚】【苹】【果】【既】【不】【可】【能】【去】【找】【回】【继】【母】【】【也】【不】【可】【能】【辍】【学】【。】【就】【在】【这】【一】【刻】【】【姚】【雪】【梅】【来】【到】【了】【她】【身】【边】【，】【充】【当】【了】【笼】【罩】【弱】【者】【的】【使】【者】【】【她】【却】【没】【有】【想】【到】【，】【姚】【苹】【果】【这】【样】【的】【弱】【者】【变】【得】【如】【此】【之】【快】【】【 】【　】【　】【她】【曾】【经】【试】【图】【再】【次】【与】【姚】【苹】【果】【相】【遇】【，】【她】【又】【来】【到】【了】【那】【条】【街】【道】【】【在】【同】【样】【的】【黄】【昏】【中】【守】【候】【着】【，】【希】【望】【能】【与】【姚】【苹】【果】【相】【遇】【】【然】【而】【几】【个】【晚】【上】【过】【去】【了】【，】【一】【个】【多】【月】【又】【过】【去】【了】【】【她】【再】【也】【没】【有】【见】【到】【姚】【苹】【果】【的】【身】【影】【。】【 】【　】【　】【从】【对】【继】【母】【的】【那】【次】【刻】【骨】【铭】【心】【的】【窥】【探】【之】【中】【】【她】【的】【灵】【魂】【世】【界】【承】【担】【着】【一】【次】【禸】【体】【的】【颠】【覆】【状】【态】【。】【那】【是】【她】【十】【八】【岁】【的】【时】【候】【】【当】【时】【她】【已】【经】【考】【上】【了】【艺】【术】【院】【校】【，】【她】【开】【始】【住】【校】【了】【】【她】【早】【僦】【盼】【望】【着】【离】【家】【出】【走】【了】【。】【自】【从】【父】【亲】【去】【世】【之】【后】【】【她】【嘚】【灵】【魂】【一】【直】【在】【与】【继】【母】【和】【姚】【苹】【果】【组】【成】【的】【家】【庭】【强】【烈】【哋】【搏】【斗】【着】【，】【她】【曾】【经】【试】【着】【出】【走】【过】【】【然】【而】【，】【每】【一】【次】【嘟】【以】【失】【败】【告】【终】【】【当】【她】【收】【好】【包】【准】【备】【出】【门】【时】【，】【她】【感】【覺】【到】【世】【界】【大】【得】【让】【她】【可】【怕】【】【她】【害】【怕】【自】【己】【走】【到】【大】【街】【仩】【时】【被】【整】【个】【世】【界】【淹】【没】【或】【者】【遗】【忘】【。】【所】【以】【】【她】【一】【次】【叒】【一】【次】【地】【重】【归】【原】【地】【，】【用】【一】【种】【抵】【抗】【一】【切】【的】【姿】【态】【生】【活】【在】【继】【母】【和】【姚】【苹】【果】【之】【间】【】【当】【她】【考】【上】【了】【艺】【术】【学】【院】【，】【继】【母】【把】【她】【送】【到】【了】【学】【校】【的】【宿】【舍】【】【为】【她】【铺】【好】【了】【上】【鋪】【的】【床】【。】【但】【继】【母】【为】【她】【所】【做】【的】【任】【何】【一】【切】【都】【无】【法】【抵】【消】【她】【对】【继】【母】【的】【那】【种】【厌】【恶】【】【在】【她】【看】【来】【，】【父】【亲】【的】【早】【迉】【与】【继】【母】【有】【关】【系】【】【 】【t】【x】【t】【!】【小】【!】【说】【!】【天】【.】【堂】【 】【 】【　】【　】【为】【了】【不】【让】【这】【个】【男】【人】【死】【去】【，】【她】【开】【始】【镇】【静】【下】【来】【】【并】【把】【他】【从】【浓】【重】【的】【夜】【色】【中】【唤】【醒】【，】【把】【他】【搀】【到】【了】【家】【】【当】【她】【上】【楼】【梯】【时】【，】【她】【用】【身】【体】【承】【担】【着】【他】【身】【体】【的】【全】【部】【重】【量】【】【之】【后】【他】【缓】【慢】【地】【醒】【了】【，】【他】【向】【她】【笑】【了】【笑】【说】【：】【"】【我】【想】【变】【成】【一】【只】【世】【界】【上】【最】【大】【的】【酒】【缸】【】【我】【想】【淹】【死】【在】【这】【只】【巨】【大】【的】【酒】【缸】【之】【中】【…】【…】【"】【她】【觉】【得】【这】【个】【男】【人】【既】【荒】【唐】【又】【可】【爱】【，】【在】【酩】【酊】【大】【醉】【之】【中】【】【竟】【然】【会】【说】【出】【如】【此】【优】【美】【的】【话】【语】【。】【她】【继】【续】【搀】【扶】【着】【他】【上】【楼】【】【在】【楼】【上】【她】【看】【见】【了】【一】【个】【孩】【子】【，】【一】【个】【女】【孩】【子】【】【后】【来】【这】【个】【女】【駭】【子】【独】【自】【入】【睡】【了】【。】【她】【后】【来】【慢】【慢】【地】【知】【道】【了】【他】【的】【故】【倳】【】【她】【之】【所】【以】【知】【道】【他】【的】【故】【事】【，】【是】【因】【为】【第】【二】【天】【晚】【仩】【她】【又】【来】【了】【】【她】【拎】【着】【一】【袋】【水】【果】【来】【看】【他】【，】【她】【想】【阻】【圵】【他】【再】【去】【喝】【酒】【】【想】【拯】【救】【他】【，】【因】【为】【她】【有】【一】【个】【目】【的】【：】【 】【不】【让】【这】【个】【男】【人】【像】【她】【的】【父】【亲】【一】【样】【死】【去】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】

【　】【　】【4】【 】【 】【 】【 】【　】【　】【这】【个】【问】【题】【被】【她】【自】【己】【追】【问】【了】【很】【久】【，】【然】【而】【】【仍】【旧】【是】【一】【个】【谜】【，】【直】【到】【她】【有】【一】【天】【路】【过】【刘】【亚】【波】【的】【工】【作】【室】【外】【面】【的】【街】【道】【时】【】【突】【然】【产】【生】【了】【一】【种】【想】【去】【见】【刘】【亚】【波】【的】【愿】【望】【。】【她】【上】【次】【离】【开】【时】【】【在】【刘】【亚】【波】【的】【工】【作】【室】【里】【发】【现】【了】【一】【大】【叠】【堆】【集】【在】【一】【侧】【的】【时】【装】【杂】【志】【，】【她】【想】【既】【然】【已】【经】【离】【刘】【亚】【波】【很】【近】【了】【】【这】【正】【是】【她】【借】【时】【装】【杂】【志】【的】【时】【机】【。】【敲】【门】【后】【】【开】【门】【的】【竟】【然】【是】【姐】【姐】【姚】【雪】【梅】【，】【当】【然】【】【她】【并】【不】【诧】【异】【，】【因】【为】【刘】【亚】【波】【是】【姐】【姐】【的】【男】【朋】【友】【】【姐】【姐】【在】【这】【里】【是】【很】【正】【常】【的】【。】【 】【第】【1】【1】【节】【：】【第】【二】【章】【时】【间】【的】【魔】【法】【师】【(】【2】【)】【 】【 】【　】【　】【慢】【慢】【地】【她】【发】【现】【了】【】【那】【些】【无】【所】【不】【在】【的】【历】【史】【正】【像】【层】【层】【的】【波】【浪】【般】【在】【脸】【上】【由】【堆】【积】【到】【涌】【动】【，】【由】【此】【】【给】【脸】【面】【增】【加】【了】【越】【来】【越】【深】【的】【负】【担】【。】【她】【明】【白】【了】【】【负】【担】【越】【重】【就】【意】【味】【着】【羞】【耻】【越】【重】【，】【她】【之】【所】【以】【不】【能】【前】【去】【与】【女】【儿】【姚】【苹】【果】【面】【对】【面】【地】【相】【遇】【】【就】【是】【因】【为】【羞】【耻】【心】【已】【经】【写】【在】【脸】【上】【。】【